Am i happy to hear tat???

the feeling is really really weird?? y am i feel so lost when i heard someone saying that he love me?? this is the first time i have such feeling.. hahahhha.. so funny.. there's a lot to think of.. its not as easy as anyone can imagine.. i always tot love is a very simple thing.. but now at my age, i dont think so..

may b nicole is correct.. there's a lot more to think of.. so y dont just stay single?? hahahahah.. but when u r single, sometime u'll feel lonely n u need someone to sayang u ger mah.. haiz.......confuse... confuse..

anyway, just let it be loh.. i dont wan to think too much lah.. y'day ody one nite cant sleep.. so hope that i cn put down this things and continue with my life.. dont think too much.. hahhahhahaha...

11th Apr 2011

Y'day went to 2 gu house to eat eat n family gathering loh.. don knw y each time im sure i have the feeling when he wan to sms or call me.. n each time this will sure happen.. shit.. i hate it.. like y'day i had the feeling he will call.. n my phone ring.. man..... when all this will end. i don wan to have this feeling anymore.. im tired.. really tired.. i just wan to start a new life being alone.. i hope i can forget bout this guy ASAP..

actually there's a new song by Ding dang with the song name Half.. each time when i listen to it, i really feel the lost... huhuhuuuuuu.. bt then i'll remember how bad he treat me.. n i can even remember that bitch face.. the anger will come.. n i'll remind myself that i need to forget bout him..

i year ody pass.. i hope i cn let it go, of coz i ody let go now.. i mean totally let go..100% let go.. ohhhhhhh.. just hope my brain dont remind me of him.. haizzzzzz........

Just now im so angry, becz of my "lou sai'.. walau each time asking the same question, seems like dont understand ger woh.. i just hope no one ever make me angry again on Monday.. coz it will spoil my whole week mood ger loh..

8th April 2011

Y'day nite had a farewell party with nelsson n ivy..oh, two of my good friend is leaving.. haiz.. next month Hon will be leaving.. so sad loh.. all gd friend r leaving..  bt life goes on mah..

im so sleepy leah.. actually i have a lot of things to do but real lazy loh.. hahahaha..

this is the picture of my 2nd baby.. jaye jaye.. so cute loh.. i miss him leah.. cz y'day didnt go back home.. so today im going back to meet him..

was thinking where to go tomorrow.. hope that no av loh.. so that i can go swimming.. y'day ask mom cz thinking of sponsor her and dad to korea.. she dont wan leah.. she wan to go china.. a place that i can't even rmb how to pronounce.. ahahhahaha..  but anyway its ok loh.. i think this year i oso wont be going anywhere.. may be next year only go new zealand loh.. haiz.. so this year only local trip to langkawi loh.. hahahaha.. if having fun going anywhere oso not bad mah..

31st Mar 2011

Wow, it's has been a while that i didnt update my blog.. really bz leah.. nw in my dept there's a new colleague "Alicia" .. let's welcome her on board.. hehehehe..

actually i found that i've really let go of him.. now he's nt there in my life and i've totally let go of him.. i found that the doctor really correct bout "dont even b his friend, coz u have other better friend".. that's correct.. i have other real good friend around me.. that care n concern bout me.. i dont need him..

i've settle my car loan.. yahoo.. have extra money to use jor.. so i go n bought a coach spec.. ahahhahah.. i think i wanna buy one for mom.. she'll like it.. but not sure whether she will go there or choose 1 that suit her..

 

this few weeks really bz, i went to UK farm at johore.. with few colleagues.. really a good place.. it's a farm stay.. with a lot of goat... meakkkkkk.. hahahahah...

good experience..

last weekend v celebrate sook e n nicole birthday at mid valley.. nicole at red box n sook e at gardens cafe.. really nice and romantic place.. 

im enjoying my life now.. bt of coz i hope to find a new bf soon... anybody can introduce a good one for me?? ahahahha

3rd March 2011

Im so angry n no mood.. i think it's because my period is coming jor.. walau.. really cannot tahan jor.. it think i've arrive to the limit jor.. im so angry.. of all the things now.. i cant control it.. i dont knw until when i'll explode.. i hope tat i can control all my anger..

may b this is where i can all scold it out so that i can have a better mood now..

im angry with that bitch.. she's really the most stupid idiot and f**cking idiot in this world.. she always think that she's damn important.. treating me like shit n her friend is tat important.. n me? im not her friend ah? ok loh, since she treat me this way it's better i just ask her to f**k off lah.. u c, im the only 1 tat so damn angry.. she's having a great time, n can even enjoy updating her facebook.. n me??? so damn angry y'day n today.. walau, am i stupid or wat??? 

really hope that there's a way for me to release all my stress...

i've finally cut off everything with this friend of mine.. i think i can have a better life without her around.. hahahhahaha.. just let me have my own life back.. i guess she dont really need me as friend coz i always feel tat she's using me only.. i mean, she only look for me when she's stress n fhan.. other than tat, even if i call she feel that im so fhan.. starting from now on, she will nvr hd the chance to treat me this way again..

1st mar 2011

When can i end all this??? I really wish i can stop thknking bout it leah. Im so tired n boring will all ths. Since i ody send d sms jus let keep to my promise. Lets learn to keep my promise n let go of my anger.

I guess there r some people tht don appreciate when thy don really lost it. So its time 4 me to learn to let it go.. May b nicole is correct i shouldnt have even think of giving him any damn chance to hurt me anymore. I jus too soft hearted. Ths is y he's bullying me. He knw its easy to turn off my anger. I hope he's dead. N ths will b my last time of being so angry. I hope. Hahaha.

28th Feb 2011

Today really tired coz y'day nite had dinner n yam cha with my ji mui (hiew, sook e n bee).. actually we just plan to have dinner together.. then sook e said that she wanna talk bout her issue to them.. actually i really feel that it's good that you share with ur friend.. just like me when i was so down tat time.. actually talking about it will really help.. even it might not solve the problem but at least can share it mah..

so v chat till 11 something.. when i arrive home it's almost 12 midnite.. so im so sleepy now.. can't even open  my eyes lah.. really cannot tahan..

but today is a good day coz my boss is on leave.. yeah... i wanna finish my skin care project leah.. bt really can't even start cz of the stocks n documentation.. pls help lah, get me a clerk lah.. haizzzzzzzz...